sendiri salah ..

a friend of mine merajuk with me recently. bukan recently actually, da lama sgt. tapi, sy masih tidak dimaafkan. nk kata x try, tipu sangat. byk metodologi da guna. the ice queen still tamau terima. rase nak masuk 2 bulan da sekarang. kalau ikut dari habis test 2 time asasi dulu.. ke 3 bulan? entah. sendiri pon miscount ..

cerita dy .. pada satu pagi sabtu , si A mengajak sahabatnya si S keluar ke jln tar. biaselah, girls n shopping creates a heavenly pair. ha2. tapi, si A sudah bergerak awal pagi ke jalan tar dan menghadapi banyak kesukaran ke sana. si ktm buat hal sungguh. da la lambat, stuck kat kl sentral lak th. org bknny nak turun kl sntral. mase i precious tau. stress betul. kena la naek rapid ke jalan tar. nasib baik laa si jln tar heaven for all shopaholics. jumpe sogo, jmpe jln tar n all those colorful tudungs, da x ingt da pd pakcik ktm sebentar tadi.

then, pusing3 dalam sogo. bukan carik ap pon. saje nk cuci2 mate. i bukan cop duit tw nak maen beli je. then, msj la si S tny lokasi dy. dy at hostel lg, x siap lg. n ak rase la.mg silap ak ajak dy. n if ak x ajak dy haritu, mgkin ak boleh ajak dy keluar lagi, mungkin ak boleh tulis kat wall fb dy, mgkin ak boleh call dy time bosan. sekarang, x boleh buat ap dah. boleh tgk je. tp x boleh buat ap ..

the dumb me then paksa jugak dy dtg, n surprisingly dy dtg. dan mesti sy lah org paling gmbira di dunie. sape x seronok jmpe member lame? tp time dy dtg, da lbeh krg pkul 5. nk shoping stu lagi, tdg raye da jmp daa. xde mnde da nak beli. dy ajak pg klcc. tp ak tamau, jaoh sgt nak balik nnt. tmbh, a friend was accompanying me. kalau ak sorg, ak ikt je. then, ak ajak pg mines. dy time th, mood baek lg. dy kate ok, ak pon ok jela.

smpy2 mines, my friend ajak balik. ak pon ntah kenapa terus agree without fikirkan psl si S y jaoh dr hostel. dodol x, ajak org pg jaoh2, then nk blk mcm th je? aah. rase mcm tamau tulis dah .. pastu, ak ajak dy balek u ak dlu. tapi dy tamau. time nh dy da tamau cakap dgn ak. marah sgt rseny. i really do apologize. tapi, ak xtw kenape, dy tggu bas dgn ktorg. bas dodol th pon x muncul2 after half an hour.

tiba my friend kte nk pg solat dlu, of course la ak stuju. sb mg plan nk g mines dlu pon. tbe jdk a change of plans pulak. hish. babo. rase mcm nk t'balik meja je time th. baru teringat yg dy x makan lg. n dy ad gastrik. mg bad mood overload r. sejak th, my text messages to her x berbalas langsung2. wish la ap perayaan sekalipun. dy marah sgt, sampai sekarang ..

cheoneun .. dangsin-i geuriwoyo~

haa. first time xtau macam mane nk start post nh. usually, idea flow macam air. laju, menderu-deru. ha2. maybe sebab banyak sangat benda nak story, rasa penuh sangat sampai xtau nak curah kat mane.

people. lots of them, show different sides each time. time smka dulu jumpa sahabat yang kenal kita, even though kita ingat dy x kenal kita. kat kkj, jumpa sahabat yang sungguh adorable. xkan jumpa kat mane2 punya. time asasi, friends there are like wings. very close and worth it. protective at times. ones that never left anyone behind, never think of themselves first. 

at first, i thought those yg x ke sekolah agama sgt ... tapi, itu hny the close-minded me yg x pernah terdedah pada alam yg bukan sosial. sungguh. culture shock at first sight! tu sebab org kate jgn judge buku dgn cover dy. tengok closely, belek isi dalam. bukan sekadar luaran dan pandai2 bagi conclusion. 

time awal2 masuk asasi, bila ada muslimin diri kat sebelah je dalam bas. mula laa. x tentu arah. pusing sini x kena, pusing sane x kena. biase la kan, time sekolah dulu, lau nk jmp dgn muslimin, ad pintu gedabak. skrg? life depends on you. no other person can intervene nor interfere. 

tapi kan, this post xde kena mengena dgn title dy.hish.balik2 merepek ..

happy(:

as usual,a blog should start the way it is.haa.finally,asasi dah habis and mula melangkah masuk ke peringkat degree.besar tu u alls.haha.gembira sebab dapat apa yang diharap dan apa yang diimpikan,tapi sedih jugak sebab asasi was really wonderful.sekarang da tinggal kenangan je.dulu tak sesibuk sekarang.dulu balik bilik mg boleh blogging,fbking dua puluh empat tujuh.tapi sekarang,balik terus tidur.penat sangat.the difference was totally huge.kalau x masuk,mg x tau laa.hah.but apapun,life must go on.have strength to gain your dream.ini once in a lifetime chance.sekali je dapat.so,grasp it to the fullest,even if ur hands cannot reach tall mountains ..

saat kebosanan.

disaat2 bosan macam ni kan..mula la kita fikir macam2.pasal sekolah dulu2 kala laa.pasal idol2 korea laa.xpon pasal result periksa yang memang kadang2 sgt mendukacitakn jiwa seorg insan.at some times u'll think about what ur future might look like and what're the obstacles that might be ahead of u.people usually and usually think only 'bout the good ones.'cause that's what they really look for.not to exclude,me.ahah.hope mine WILL be a bright one.insya-Allah~

and at times.u'll be really mad or frustrated with something that tears swell in the corner of ur eyes and flow down ur cheeks.that has happen so many times.not to mention a gazillion times.but i'm being real cool 'bout it here.crying really are not for crybabies only.tough people also cry.at times, i mean .. grab a shoulder if u find one.if not, ur hands are enough.i usually use mine.ha2^^

pathetic ain't it?.but i don't mine.it's my place after all.

current mood : dissapointed

stephen king's under the dome was much to a dissapointment for me. and why?. it was mostly because of it's sarcasm towards Islam. even if you're not a Muslim doesn't mean you can senang-senang je kutuk agama orang lain. what if a Muslim suddenly do that same sarcasm towards you Christians. of course you would be against it.

and I know I've kinda overeacted here. tapi kalau kutuk sekali takpe la kan. tapi ni sampai tiga kali. baru half buku. tu tak masuk pasal hero dy lagi. a retired army who once served at Iraq and was really proud of pointing a gun at an Iraqi. and lagi, hati seorang Muslim mane yg tak tersentap when someone of another religion cakap pasal 'Hindu Mosques'?. since when Hindu's prayed at Mosques?. really.

not to mention dy kutuk how we Islam perform solahs. ade sorg woman dlm novel ni yg hentak kepala dy kt lantai then dy compare dgn satu jockey yg sdg salute Allah.even if I don't know exactly what a jockey is but.. yaa~!. ade kitorg kutuk cara anda pray to ur God in any of our works?. so why bring that up?. you've got no rights exactly. zero rights. we Muslims would never do the same even if it's the end of the world itself.

stephen king's actually one of my most respectable authors other than jk rowling. but serta merta. terus hilang macam tu je. tahu la encik berpengaruh tapi tak payah la kan. hish. whatever it is, hope there would be no more sarcasm towards the end. three is more than enough la uncle. enough is really enough ..

banned !

that day was a normal day. class starts and ends the way it should. and through gaps, we would lay back and listen not to mention watch as well videos being shown in front of that large screen. and every time, it would be either bruno mars or even taylor swift. kalau sekali sekala it would be fun. but everyday?. come on laa. respect other people's thoughts as well

even if i once to was a hardcore in listening to eng songs, but that was 2 years back. long enough to be forgotten. now.. i'm proud to say that i'm more interested in korean songs rather than english ones. it's because of their dance moves and such. DAEBAK~!

walaupun hanya segelintir yang minat k-pop b'sama saya. please laa. don't kutuk others in front of others. mmg laa kita patut minat lagu2 melayu tapi anda sendiri pun tak dengar sangat lagu melayu. buat apa kutuk orang?.

satu hari tu my friend and i try laa pasang lagu beast fiction at that huge screen tapi on the spot diorg suruh tutup. tp my friend and i buat pekak. pasang pulak u-kiss man man hani. lagi la kena. bising je diorg ni. sumbat stokin kang baru tau. sekali sekala try la jugak ikut flow orang. takkn org je yang nk kena ikut flow dy. sorry laa. first time dengar mmg takkn minat. tapi kalau da minat, there's no turning back ..

tolong laa. mmg kesian la kt my friend th. dy kata "len kali kte x leh bukak korea lah echa. kena banned kot.." ak pon berkate "huh..tw xp..".hmm. n next time we won't ..

if i'm hurt with someone, i won't meet their eyes ..

funny ain't it?that title.haha.one word right now.FURIOUS.at someone.she made me suddenly like.shutting up at an instance.sorry girl.if i'm hurt.i won't look at you even if i laugh at your jokes or interact with you that time.

it wasn't like she did anything wrong.demo-ne.i have feelings as well.but i won't show laa.there are actually times when you really felt sad at even the slightest thing.and that always happened.

kyaa~!

wahh~sudah sekian lama tidak mencoret2 isi hati yang sudah lama ingin dilimpahkan bila2 shj.d mne shj.

harini ad role-play assessment.and it's kinda fun since i've got a great partner to be role-playing with.he's good and not to mention i'm good as well.ahah.role-play itu went well.and siapa y sudah ms. sara suruh leave.and with all the pleasure, i actually left that bilik kuliah.

jalan jalan jalan.stop depan shahir.sembang2 ko dpt part apa ak dpt part apa.then membawa diri ke hujung jalan dimana ad satu meja tidak berpenghuni.sebaik duduk earphone berserta hp xpress music-my 2nd life dikeluarkan plus buku math pink terchenta.baru teringat y ad one question KI y kena buat.

of course la.DBSK's 'wae?kyhd' menemani insan berjiwa keseorangan ni.then masuk je part 2 question tu.ad seorang manusia berbeg merah upm kura2 tu muncul tanpa dipelawa lalu duduk mengacau my 'DBSK time n me'.sebok je.

but then.that perasaan menyampah tu hilang begitu shj once insan itu membuka mulutnya.saat hati ke hati jiwa ke jiwa bermula.and of all the other people out there.naega wae?tapi since sifat perikemanusiaan still bercebis d hati.dperlahankan volume mp3 player y blagu memainkan DBSK's bolero lalu bermula curahan perasaan seorg insan yang begitu tragis sekali.

and for the first time.a guy actually cried in front of me.but not clearly laa.once ak jerit kata dy nangis sekejapan mata dan hidung yang merah itu bertukar kaler.sori awak.sy tak sengaja nak ckp kuat2.

tp ak still try my best laa nak cuba redakan perasaan dy y bercelaru memikirkan pasal role-play td tu.n walaupun mende y dia ckp kdg cam mumbling je in my ears.ak still buat2 faham n cuba untuk buat dy x fikir da sal mende tu.

and actually he did finally settle down.and i suddenly felt sorry for him for not really listening.hah.biase la kalau nga layan DBSK an?biarlah dy.he's a guy anyway.of course dy tawu jge diri.n a guy should fight for his pride.since when guys are not egomaniacs?