to the future you, be tough :)

it's been like what, 8 months since my last post? I almost forgot that I have a site of mine to rant out stuffs. well, this year's a hectic one. it's our 6th semester of our third year, forgetting stuffs is not all that weird when you have classes and tests and practical tests and quizzes and oral exams and presentations and assignments. believe me, I've suffered and endured worst.

this sem's actually the toughest of all other sems. we started surgery this year and there's osce, kind of like a practical test for communication and clinical skills. a situation's given, like there's this fractious dog, then you have to show the examiner how to muzzle him and how to perform veinpuncture on him. stuffs like jumbled up words and shaking hands are common among us.

that was that, but what was even funnier was during our surgery practical test. at one station, there was this chicken drumstick and you've to show how to do two simple interrupted knots. it was easy as pie, since you've practiced but I was shaking like Allah-knows-how. I managed two though, on time and all. who wouldn't shiver when two clinicians were like staring at how you hold the needle driver, how you keep the forceps and how you handle the needle. what more nervous is that one of the examiners is your own PA? oh Allah help me. that went with flying colours though, shaking and all

this week's our finals. two more papers to go. may Allah ease our journey to do what we love best, and may Allah guide us no matter how hard this journey is, no matter how steep the hill is, don't fear for Allah will be there, that particular time, that particular moment, whenever and wherever :)

Am I wrong?

I was being bashed quite badly just for uploading a picture of me and a dog licking my face, on Facebook. My school teacher PMed me and asked for explanation, as to why I was eager enough to the extent of uploading a picture with a dog. My friend also PMed me, and asked me to change that picture into another one. My other friend said that it is wrong, and asked for explanation. 

I am currently at a lost of words. At first, I tend to ignore all these people for not truly understanding their own religion; I apologize if I hurt other people by saying this. Sekai wa zankokudesu, people just don't accept mere explanations.

What is wrong actually? I'm currently a third year veterinary medicine student of UPM. Was it wrong for a dog to lick my face? In the future, if Allah wills, I become a vet, would it be wrong if my patient starts showing affection? Do I have to shove it aside just because it licks my face and dirtying my clothes with its little paws? Should I go say to the owner of this dog that I don't treat dogs since my religion don't allow me to? Just because a few Malays don't quite understand how our Prophet have explained in His Hadith that I've been bashed this hard?

People, before you bash anyone, do some research at least. Proof to me that I'm wrong. Show me an Ayat for the Quran that says holding dogs is Haraam to Muslims. Show me proof that says holding a dog would be categorised as a large sin. I dare you to show me if you can.

If I'm wrong, then what does this Hadith tells you?

Sabda Nabi SAW; “Apabila anjing minum dalam bekas kamu, basuhlah bekas itu sebanyak tujuh kali” (Soheh al-Bukhari; 172. Soheh Muslim; 279/90. Dari Abu Hurairah RA)

That Hadith clearly states how to handle yourself after handling dogs. Why is it so difficult to understand? Nowadays we even have sabun taharah. Wouldn't that be enough?
 
I have cut open carcass of dogs countless times during my anatomy lab. If this is categorised as a large sin, then how many time have I sinned these 3 years just for holding dogs? If I'm wrong, proof to me that I'm wrong. I won't post up bizarre things just because I'm not ready for it. 

Osaka: an experience

Day 1, 24th April 2013

Our flight that night from KLIA to KIX was at 2345. A late night flight. Bummer. Ayah was driving like crazy from UPM, Serdang to KLIA sbb time tu dah like 2045. That night, cuaca seriously dreadful plus traffic jam. Dreadful, for some, but as a Muslim, the rain should be considered as a rahmat from Allah though. Anyways, we reached KLIA aroung 2100 I guess. Immediately, ayah pergi check in baggage, pergi currency exchange counter, changed some RM to YEN, then terus pergi terminal after solat. We managed to catch the flight, alhamdulillah :)

Day 2, 25th April 2013

The next day, we reached Japan. Flight mendarat at 0530 something rasanye. Got past security and all, then our adventure at Osaka begins! We board a train kat Kansai Airport tu to stop at Universal City. In between, we stopped at Nishikujo to change route. Time tengah tunggu train tu, kitorg teruja tahap apa entah tengok seat train tu boleh pusing 180 degree. Haha. Macam apa entah.

Tren nh laa kerusi dy boleh pusing~

Inside the Kansai Airport railway ke Nishikujo

Lagi satu lagi teruja tengok bidet dalam ladies dekat airport. Nak tau bidet tu ape? Quite embarrassing to tell here though. Search yourselves then ayy? Around 1030, sampai Universal City, sebab lapar immediately singgah McD. Since we don't know whether beef and chicken dy have been halal slaughtered or not, Filet O' Fish was all to order then. Communication was not a problem though here since my ayah can speak Japanese and alhamdulillah everything went smoothly. FYI, the Japanese doesn't like to drink tea with sugar or to have their burgers and fries with ketchup. So then, you have to bear with no ketchup to go with your fries since there aren't any anyway. You can always ask for extra sugar though. And a kind reminder, the Japanese always clear up their tables after they eat. Leftover drinks went into separate places, as well as plastics and paper. Plus, I know the Malays like to duduk bersila time they eat anywhere, never do that in Japan though, unless you have your shoes off. Cleanliness and hygiene is quite strict here.

Universal Walk. Kat sini ada plenty tmpt makan

Our hotel, Hotel Universal Port

Before ke Kaiyukan, singgah kat Universal Studios dulu

Ferry ke Tempozan ferris wheel 

Outside the Kaiyukan :)

Right after that, kitorg pergi on foot ke Tempozan ferry terminal to take a ferry to the Osaka Kaiyukan after leaving our luggage and stuff at the Universal Port Hotel. The ferry ride was free and a nice one. Nasib baik sekejap je, lama lama boleh mabuk. Haha. Sampai kat Kaiyukan, ktorg beli tiket and masuk dalam! The ticket cost 2300 yen, but it's worth it sbb dlm dy jaw-dropping sangat. Here are a few snapshots ..

The ticket that costs 2300 yen

Masuk masuk je terus jumpa bridge ni. Seriously mengagumkan!

Amazing tahap gaban~!

Ketam besar!

Never to worry kalau masuk Kaiyukan tu. Pamphlets are available in Japanese, Korean and also English. So you'll never get lost. Plus, dalam ade banyak sangat signboard to anywhere, and dekat setiap checkpoint, dy bagi lots of info. Walk dalam tu tak silap ada laa dalam ratus meter gak, tp tak ingat berape. Haa. Anyways, the fun part dalam Kaiyukan ni masa time dekat dekat nak keluar tu. Ada satu checkpoint tu, dy kasi kita pegang shark and ikan pari. Waaa~ Teruja yang amat, tp do remember to wash your hands before and after :)

Pari 'petting zoo' :D

An extinct species, dy ade macam horn unicorn gitu

That ends the first day. Ktorg balik hotel feeling satisfied even when kaki sakit sbb jalan banyak sangat. But, our journey tak berhenti sampai sini tau~ Check out our hotel room :)

Spacious!

Bragging :P Bidet dy best!

LOLS!

wanting just as much

at times when your rezeki just keeps pouring in and does not stop, you tend to want doing lots of things. even if, you're not sure at what cost and at what purpose. it's quite disturbing actually. wanting to do something but not being able to ..

you know what i mean, right?

although studying should be put forward, it's not a sin to try something new and try to involve in something you fall in love with. for now though, that has to wait ..

DVM(:

quite a lot has happened during these past few months. and what I mean with a lot, means quite a lot. not to mention it was already another new year. it has been a busy year. but, it started of pretty well. surprise, surprise~ I've got an A- for my physiology test. great,huh?

surprisingly, it has been another semester for me as a DVM student. hard work though. lots to cope on. but learning's an adventure right? so, just lay back and do what you think is right. stay on the right path and don't fall off. life here asks you to stand on your own. even with friends on all sides ..

music can help. as it helps brighten up mine. maybe yours will too.

sendiri salah ..

a friend of mine merajuk with me recently. bukan recently actually, da lama sgt. tapi, sy masih tidak dimaafkan. nk kata x try, tipu sangat. byk metodologi da guna. the ice queen still tamau terima. rase nak masuk 2 bulan da sekarang. kalau ikut dari habis test 2 time asasi dulu.. ke 3 bulan? entah. sendiri pon miscount ..

cerita dy .. pada satu pagi sabtu , si A mengajak sahabatnya si S keluar ke jln tar. biaselah, girls n shopping creates a heavenly pair. ha2. tapi, si A sudah bergerak awal pagi ke jalan tar dan menghadapi banyak kesukaran ke sana. si ktm buat hal sungguh. da la lambat, stuck kat kl sentral lak th. org bknny nak turun kl sntral. mase i precious tau. stress betul. kena la naek rapid ke jalan tar. nasib baik laa si jln tar heaven for all shopaholics. jumpe sogo, jmpe jln tar n all those colorful tudungs, da x ingt da pd pakcik ktm sebentar tadi.

then, pusing3 dalam sogo. bukan carik ap pon. saje nk cuci2 mate. i bukan cop duit tw nak maen beli je. then, msj la si S tny lokasi dy. dy at hostel lg, x siap lg. n ak rase la.mg silap ak ajak dy. n if ak x ajak dy haritu, mgkin ak boleh ajak dy keluar lagi, mungkin ak boleh tulis kat wall fb dy, mgkin ak boleh call dy time bosan. sekarang, x boleh buat ap dah. boleh tgk je. tp x boleh buat ap ..

the dumb me then paksa jugak dy dtg, n surprisingly dy dtg. dan mesti sy lah org paling gmbira di dunie. sape x seronok jmpe member lame? tp time dy dtg, da lbeh krg pkul 5. nk shoping stu lagi, tdg raye da jmp daa. xde mnde da nak beli. dy ajak pg klcc. tp ak tamau, jaoh sgt nak balik nnt. tmbh, a friend was accompanying me. kalau ak sorg, ak ikt je. then, ak ajak pg mines. dy time th, mood baek lg. dy kate ok, ak pon ok jela.

smpy2 mines, my friend ajak balik. ak pon ntah kenapa terus agree without fikirkan psl si S y jaoh dr hostel. dodol x, ajak org pg jaoh2, then nk blk mcm th je? aah. rase mcm tamau tulis dah .. pastu, ak ajak dy balek u ak dlu. tapi dy tamau. time nh dy da tamau cakap dgn ak. marah sgt rseny. i really do apologize. tapi, ak xtw kenape, dy tggu bas dgn ktorg. bas dodol th pon x muncul2 after half an hour.

tiba my friend kte nk pg solat dlu, of course la ak stuju. sb mg plan nk g mines dlu pon. tbe jdk a change of plans pulak. hish. babo. rase mcm nk t'balik meja je time th. baru teringat yg dy x makan lg. n dy ad gastrik. mg bad mood overload r. sejak th, my text messages to her x berbalas langsung2. wish la ap perayaan sekalipun. dy marah sgt, sampai sekarang ..

cheoneun .. dangsin-i geuriwoyo~

haa. first time xtau macam mane nk start post nh. usually, idea flow macam air. laju, menderu-deru. ha2. maybe sebab banyak sangat benda nak story, rasa penuh sangat sampai xtau nak curah kat mane.

people. lots of them, show different sides each time. time smka dulu jumpa sahabat yang kenal kita, even though kita ingat dy x kenal kita. kat kkj, jumpa sahabat yang sungguh adorable. xkan jumpa kat mane2 punya. time asasi, friends there are like wings. very close and worth it. protective at times. ones that never left anyone behind, never think of themselves first. 

at first, i thought those yg x ke sekolah agama sgt ... tapi, itu hny the close-minded me yg x pernah terdedah pada alam yg bukan sosial. sungguh. culture shock at first sight! tu sebab org kate jgn judge buku dgn cover dy. tengok closely, belek isi dalam. bukan sekadar luaran dan pandai2 bagi conclusion. 

time awal2 masuk asasi, bila ada muslimin diri kat sebelah je dalam bas. mula laa. x tentu arah. pusing sini x kena, pusing sane x kena. biase la kan, time sekolah dulu, lau nk jmp dgn muslimin, ad pintu gedabak. skrg? life depends on you. no other person can intervene nor interfere. 

tapi kan, this post xde kena mengena dgn title dy.hish.balik2 merepek ..

happy(:

as usual,a blog should start the way it is.haa.finally,asasi dah habis and mula melangkah masuk ke peringkat degree.besar tu u alls.haha.gembira sebab dapat apa yang diharap dan apa yang diimpikan,tapi sedih jugak sebab asasi was really wonderful.sekarang da tinggal kenangan je.dulu tak sesibuk sekarang.dulu balik bilik mg boleh blogging,fbking dua puluh empat tujuh.tapi sekarang,balik terus tidur.penat sangat.the difference was totally huge.kalau x masuk,mg x tau laa.hah.but apapun,life must go on.have strength to gain your dream.ini once in a lifetime chance.sekali je dapat.so,grasp it to the fullest,even if ur hands cannot reach tall mountains ..

saat kebosanan.

disaat2 bosan macam ni kan..mula la kita fikir macam2.pasal sekolah dulu2 kala laa.pasal idol2 korea laa.xpon pasal result periksa yang memang kadang2 sgt mendukacitakn jiwa seorg insan.at some times u'll think about what ur future might look like and what're the obstacles that might be ahead of u.people usually and usually think only 'bout the good ones.'cause that's what they really look for.not to exclude,me.ahah.hope mine WILL be a bright one.insya-Allah~

and at times.u'll be really mad or frustrated with something that tears swell in the corner of ur eyes and flow down ur cheeks.that has happen so many times.not to mention a gazillion times.but i'm being real cool 'bout it here.crying really are not for crybabies only.tough people also cry.at times, i mean .. grab a shoulder if u find one.if not, ur hands are enough.i usually use mine.ha2^^

pathetic ain't it?.but i don't mine.it's my place after all.

current mood : dissapointed

stephen king's under the dome was much to a dissapointment for me. and why?. it was mostly because of it's sarcasm towards Islam. even if you're not a Muslim doesn't mean you can senang-senang je kutuk agama orang lain. what if a Muslim suddenly do that same sarcasm towards you Christians. of course you would be against it.

and I know I've kinda overeacted here. tapi kalau kutuk sekali takpe la kan. tapi ni sampai tiga kali. baru half buku. tu tak masuk pasal hero dy lagi. a retired army who once served at Iraq and was really proud of pointing a gun at an Iraqi. and lagi, hati seorang Muslim mane yg tak tersentap when someone of another religion cakap pasal 'Hindu Mosques'?. since when Hindu's prayed at Mosques?. really.

not to mention dy kutuk how we Islam perform solahs. ade sorg woman dlm novel ni yg hentak kepala dy kt lantai then dy compare dgn satu jockey yg sdg salute Allah.even if I don't know exactly what a jockey is but.. yaa~!. ade kitorg kutuk cara anda pray to ur God in any of our works?. so why bring that up?. you've got no rights exactly. zero rights. we Muslims would never do the same even if it's the end of the world itself.

stephen king's actually one of my most respectable authors other than jk rowling. but serta merta. terus hilang macam tu je. tahu la encik berpengaruh tapi tak payah la kan. hish. whatever it is, hope there would be no more sarcasm towards the end. three is more than enough la uncle. enough is really enough ..

banned !

that day was a normal day. class starts and ends the way it should. and through gaps, we would lay back and listen not to mention watch as well videos being shown in front of that large screen. and every time, it would be either bruno mars or even taylor swift. kalau sekali sekala it would be fun. but everyday?. come on laa. respect other people's thoughts as well

even if i once to was a hardcore in listening to eng songs, but that was 2 years back. long enough to be forgotten. now.. i'm proud to say that i'm more interested in korean songs rather than english ones. it's because of their dance moves and such. DAEBAK~!

walaupun hanya segelintir yang minat k-pop b'sama saya. please laa. don't kutuk others in front of others. mmg laa kita patut minat lagu2 melayu tapi anda sendiri pun tak dengar sangat lagu melayu. buat apa kutuk orang?.

satu hari tu my friend and i try laa pasang lagu beast fiction at that huge screen tapi on the spot diorg suruh tutup. tp my friend and i buat pekak. pasang pulak u-kiss man man hani. lagi la kena. bising je diorg ni. sumbat stokin kang baru tau. sekali sekala try la jugak ikut flow orang. takkn org je yang nk kena ikut flow dy. sorry laa. first time dengar mmg takkn minat. tapi kalau da minat, there's no turning back ..

tolong laa. mmg kesian la kt my friend th. dy kata "len kali kte x leh bukak korea lah echa. kena banned kot.." ak pon berkate "huh..tw xp..".hmm. n next time we won't ..

if i'm hurt with someone, i won't meet their eyes ..

funny ain't it?that title.haha.one word right now.FURIOUS.at someone.she made me suddenly like.shutting up at an instance.sorry girl.if i'm hurt.i won't look at you even if i laugh at your jokes or interact with you that time.

it wasn't like she did anything wrong.demo-ne.i have feelings as well.but i won't show laa.there are actually times when you really felt sad at even the slightest thing.and that always happened.

kyaa~!

wahh~sudah sekian lama tidak mencoret2 isi hati yang sudah lama ingin dilimpahkan bila2 shj.d mne shj.

harini ad role-play assessment.and it's kinda fun since i've got a great partner to be role-playing with.he's good and not to mention i'm good as well.ahah.role-play itu went well.and siapa y sudah ms. sara suruh leave.and with all the pleasure, i actually left that bilik kuliah.

jalan jalan jalan.stop depan shahir.sembang2 ko dpt part apa ak dpt part apa.then membawa diri ke hujung jalan dimana ad satu meja tidak berpenghuni.sebaik duduk earphone berserta hp xpress music-my 2nd life dikeluarkan plus buku math pink terchenta.baru teringat y ad one question KI y kena buat.

of course la.DBSK's 'wae?kyhd' menemani insan berjiwa keseorangan ni.then masuk je part 2 question tu.ad seorang manusia berbeg merah upm kura2 tu muncul tanpa dipelawa lalu duduk mengacau my 'DBSK time n me'.sebok je.

but then.that perasaan menyampah tu hilang begitu shj once insan itu membuka mulutnya.saat hati ke hati jiwa ke jiwa bermula.and of all the other people out there.naega wae?tapi since sifat perikemanusiaan still bercebis d hati.dperlahankan volume mp3 player y blagu memainkan DBSK's bolero lalu bermula curahan perasaan seorg insan yang begitu tragis sekali.

and for the first time.a guy actually cried in front of me.but not clearly laa.once ak jerit kata dy nangis sekejapan mata dan hidung yang merah itu bertukar kaler.sori awak.sy tak sengaja nak ckp kuat2.

tp ak still try my best laa nak cuba redakan perasaan dy y bercelaru memikirkan pasal role-play td tu.n walaupun mende y dia ckp kdg cam mumbling je in my ears.ak still buat2 faham n cuba untuk buat dy x fikir da sal mende tu.

and actually he did finally settle down.and i suddenly felt sorry for him for not really listening.hah.biase la kalau nga layan DBSK an?biarlah dy.he's a guy anyway.of course dy tawu jge diri.n a guy should fight for his pride.since when guys are not egomaniacs?

ramadhan;fadhilat tanpa henti

alhmdulillah.ramadhan suda kmbli.thnx to who?of course it is to Him, The Almighty for he has given us another chance to face ramadhan satu kly lg.

bkn sng nk puasa in a day.bkn sng nk buka mata utk b'shr pg2.n bkn sng nk trn g musolla dr tgkt 4 th smate2 utk solat tarawikh + witir 11 rakaat.bkn sng.tp sb Allah izinkn.diri ini mmp utk tdk mkn dn mnm utk 12 jam lmeny.diri ini mmp utk bukakn mata dr tidur y kdg tdk ckp lmeny hny utk mjmh sahur.n dri ini juga mmpu utk mnapak trn tgga ke musolla orion bg solat sunat 11 rakaat lmeny.

sb maha pengasih dan penyayangnya Allah.Dia beri kte pluang nk upgrade ap2 y ptot.nk tmbh ap y krg dn maintainkn ap y salu diamalkn.istiqamah la kan.fastaqim kama umirta.laju je tgn nh type.ntah knp.ha2

anyways.ramadhan ttp ramadhan.exam still exam.utamakn y wjb dhlu then y len mnyusul.kalau x sure prkare th btol jgn smpykn.crk dlu.then bru smpykn.kalau slh nt susah.renung2kn dn salam beramal..

turning over a new leaf..

wahaa.finally.da slmt msk u.da slmt orientsi.n da slmt fes day kuliah.hu3.pnt3.mne x pntny.stiap kly g mmne sume kne naek bas.tp seb bek bas free.lau x.mawu semput duwet ak.ha3.tp mmg ptot pon r nek bas.sume tmpt jaoh gle.bleh kurus abes r dok sni.wu3

td ad klas physics nan math.lecturer th ajar lju gler.tkapai2 ak nk kjarny.huhh.mmg len r cre dy ajar nan cikgu mariah kkj dlu.ckgu skrg2ny bg tyme nk salin notes.nh tyme dy ajar th r tyme nk salin nota ny.ngaa.tnsen2.lecturer physics th plak suare romntik gle.huu.mmg td da smpi kkj blek r.ha2

tp at least ak stil ad mem.xd r dok blaja sorg2 an.tyme dftr arith dpt blk ars bwh.tbe tyme senior nk msk 12 july arith.kne tuka plak.gle tnsen r.abes kne punggah n kms sume brg blek.x ke haru?aisehh.tp klu x kne pndh kolej lg stu

ntah cmne ntah.dpt gk r kolej y sme.dri blok e.g tuka blok f.dri aras bwh.g tuka aras empt.gle tggi.cm zmn kkj dolu2.ha3.tp kre bgos r x tuka kolej len.xmau ak angkut brg blek nek bas.hu2

3 julai 2010

ngaa.at last.dpt gk twrn g u.tp tamau r gtw tat sni.cm sgn.mem2 sniri pon sakan gelak.bia org2 y t'tntu jela tau.ha3

bkn ap.lau mnde th gah er ap.leh r brag an?tp sb rzult on ckp2 mkn nasi er.mne nk dpt tmpt gmpx2.tp ok r th.at least dpt u.cek r web page u th arith.kte tat stu skng nh th u no 1 malaysia.ak cm mragui gk mnde th.dy sb dy dpt ap ntah dr abroad.terer r th an

mmle xnk g stu.sb kos th r.da r choice kelima er keenam ntah.y pntg bkn y fes.cm nk er g mtrx.plg krg dpt sn fizikal an?kre ok r th.tp sb nt ak leh pursue biotech ntok dgree.ak pon on jela an.ha3.nt save stu taon.hu3

y besny leh cuti ag.huu.syiok2.mem2 ak y len sume da msk mtrx daa.awe an?tp ok r msk mtrx.stu taon er.lau amek dip ag prh nk tggu smpi 3 taon.tp untung r sb dpt keje tros.hoh

judgement day

wahaa.esok.tggl 11 mac 2010.akn kua r rzult spm.cuak kot.ntah dpt bpe ntah.da isi upu da td.mnx tulun ayh isikn.ak usha er la.twu ayh pleh ap?ak ase cm nk rombak blek er.tp da ayh y pleh an.redha n twkl er la.

plhn fes:asasi perubtn perthnan.i was like.what?!ayh bia btol.asasi perubtn kre bgos r ag.nh.perthnan!kt u perthanan ny.mngagau ak kot.usha r dy ny klayakn kt pge upnm th.kne at least B+ ntok bio n kim.n B ntok bi,+math n fiz.da r siap ad syrt tggi nan brt.tp dak pki spec xleh r.ngaa~

susa kot.seb bek 2nd choice asasi farmasi.tp th kt uia plk.aiseh.xnk msk uia.mawu jmp dk smka kang.wt mlu er.da r siap plh diploma pngurusn hrta tnh nan undg2.haa~x pena tpk pon nk jdk lawyer.kte arith nk org amek biotech.adeh.

hmm.xp r.ayh y pleh an agpon.dy twu r th kot.waa~

the red gate

slh er klu pnjt pgr for a reason?.some people xleh trime ap y kmi pk..they think of themselves and yeah right..they can judge whatever whoever they want..by all means,it's a free world..but even so,they don't have the rights to extrapolate cte th..they've got no rights at all to insult us that bad..we girls have feelings..and what you see outside may not be the same as the inside..

those y xtw cte sbnr bleh r wt mke sgle..i knew what we did was wrong..but..we didn't do it just for fun..we didn't do it for fame..we didn't do it to show how good or how bad we are..those who think so,it's up to you guys..like i said it's a free world..

aniwe,things happened..no can do..there's no way time could be turned to fix those we did wrong..why r?.people just can't accept what they should?.like they were good enough to say this and that..to blame whoever they wanted..nobody should be blamed..

but believe me,we did not had any intentions to pnjt that red gate..those y tw cte sbnr knew why we did it and how we did it..those y xtw ap2,x yah sebok r nk tw..get the hell out of our way..we didn't even need you guys inn our life..thousands are waiting to pat us on our backs..we're not waiting for you guys..

never hope and never will..

i'm dying of boredom..

total boring-ness(what kind of word is that anyway?.)..huhh..never mind..seriously,the thought of living at home is heaven turns out the other way round..the best part is you don't need to study anymore and the fact that you're older than any school kids..except the sixth formers..well,they're still older anyhow..

now..i'm at home livin' with my older sis and my two younger brothers..my other two younger sisters are currently staying in the same hostel..at first,i thought it would be awesome havin' the room to my own but it turns out you'll feel lonely anyhow..there's always a feeling that something's missin'..but i hate to admit it..ha3

KKJ..??

what's with all the mushy KKJ thingy huh..??

ak baru melayari ms and fb..rameny laa rindu kt kkj th..weird but unfortunately true..huhh..